Marriage

We've been married for 2 months now and everyone asks "so, how's married life?". I always answer "it's awesome". Because it really is. But I also want to say "it's surreal. I can't always wrap my mind around it. I'm a wife." Totally weird.

I sometimes feel like a little girl playing dress up. Standing in my mother's heels, feet slipped into the toe and 3 inches of extra room in the back, swimming in a dress that fits more like a tent than a glove. Gazing through the looking glass at my made up face of lipstick pink cheeks, smeared purple eye shadow, and spikey lashes, gooped with mascara.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm playing house. Wearing my funny apron, whipping up dinner, and folding laundry while the apple pie is baking in the oven.

But it's good. Surreal and mind boggling, but definitely good. And when I look out the window and see my husband sitting on the back porch waiting for the grill to heat up, enjoying the sunset, it's not only good, it just seems right.