I have a weird, OCD obsession- I have to write down everything I do. Everyday, for as long as I can remember, I've written down everything I did the day before in my planner. I can tell you exactly what I was doing on September 18, 2007 because it's written down in my 2007 planner. I have no idea why I do this. I just do.
Until July 2010, that is. If you look at the planner for that month, there's nothing. Blank pages glaring back at me as if my life came to a screeching halt after the end of June. Flipping through those pages, I feel like the kid from Flight of the Navigator who fell into the hole in the woods (and was apparently kidnapped by aliens, a minor plot detail I seem to have forgotten since watching the movie 2 decades ago) and then comes back, unaged, years later only to find everyone else has grown up. That's me. Minus the unaged part and everyone else growing up. I just have the "fell off the face of the planet and have no idea where the time went" kind of similarity.
The funniest part is that while the planner seems to express that I did nothing for a month, in actualilty I was running myself in circles, busier than I have ever been in my life. People always say "when something's important, you'll make time for it" and I kept thinking about that when guilt from not blogging set in. "Rachel, if this was really important, you'd make time for it". And I'd feel bad when yet another day passed and I hadn't opened the computer to upload my picture for the day (yes, although I wasn't blogging, I was still taking pictures...).
HOWEVER, what July 2010 taught me is that there are times when you CAN"T actually "make time" for everything. When EVERYTHING on your "to do list" must actually be done (packing for the honeymoon, making sure decorations are delivered to your future mother-in-law so she can take them to the church, emailing the musicians about rehearsal times, confirming your hair appointment for the day of, moving stuff from one house to the other, writing instructions for the pet/house sitter, wrapping gifts, making the dang slideshow....)and there aren't enough hours in the day to fit it all in...even if you do skimp on sleep and pack in just one more thing.
That's when I told myself that it was okay to disappear for a month. That the final stages of wedding planning and preparing for married life is kind of like falling into a hole in the woods and being kidnapped by aliens. It's a bummer to be gone for so long, but hopefully, when you return, people forgive the absence and are just happy that you're back....
So, welcome back to me! Yay! And be prepared. I have a month+ worth of photos that are coming your way....
July 2, 2010 Pictures
Inspired by the artwork that everyone seems to have where a word is spelled out with photos...
L.O.V.E
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